Those who knew and loved 30-year-old Jarrid Wilson, a California pastor, author and mental health advocate who died by suicide, are absolutely gutted. The associate pastor at megachurch Harvest Christian Fellowship in Riverside, CA, tweeted about “suicidal thoughts” before killing himself.

After a video of Bishop T.D. Jakes telling a weeping Pastor John Gray “the spirit of suicide hangs around your house,” many prayed for that suicidal spirit to be lifted from the Relentless Church leader. He clarifies his statements inside.

Pastor John Gray has been making headlines for committing adultery and battling suicidal thoughts. He has been getting a lot of backlash. To all the judgmental folks, he has a message: you “ain’t saved.” The Relentless Church pastor said during a sermon, “They say they’re saved, but they’re the first ones to judge you…”